How the time flies.

It has been more than TWO YEARS since I last wrote in here. The other day I was thinking about this Xanga site and for the life of me, couldn't even remember my log-in. Today, it came back to me. I'm in college now, and much has changed. Same height but quite a different weight. I feel as if a lot of the people I used to talk to on here may have left all this behind, but I guess who's to say. I'll find out soon enough I suppose. It feels like only yesterday I was joining competitions and writing comments to people encouraging them to do their best. These days, I've been weighing in at around 125 and recently hit my lifetime high of 127.  The lowest I've been at school this year I think has been 116. So definitely been fluctuating. Finals are here in the next few weeks and then I'm going home for about a month. I'd love to have lost some weight before I go back, see old friends, old lovers :) If anyone is still out there, let me know. xxo-Trixie

it has been a nice week...not too much food today..i've had about a quarter of an apple..about to finish the other quarter...

tomorrow is the last day of school. the year goes by so quickly. and next year, i'll be graduating...moving away from everything i know here in my quaint hometown...i teared up just thinking about it today...whole new world out there.

i won last night! yay...

today, buffet dinner on the cruise..couldnt avoid it.

tomorrow is going to rock because i'm not eating. nothing. this time tomorrow i am gonna have completed a 24 hour fast. this is going to kick ass. k.

love love love love love love love.

xoxo <3333333

Currently Playing A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar By Dashboard Confessional see related

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**UPDATE**

had half a fettucine alfredo and about 5 pieces of small bread. i'm horrible.

Let's all praise Radiohead:

"I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control
I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul"

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i just saw shrek 2..what an absolutely precious movie...true love ..ogre style. as cheesy as it sounds talking about a computer animated children's movie..i can't wait until the time when i fall in love. i just envision it as being the most wonderful, amazing thing that has ever happened to me...i get so jealous when i read twiggy's xanga talking about her and matt, but i'm also soo happy for her..the love of your life proposing to you..what more could someone ask for? but i mean....it's way early for anything like that to ever happen to me obviously..but still..LOVE.. which reminds me of how much i miss my boy...alex has been gone since friday in tahoe with all his guys, drinking and riding the rubicon trail. i'm glad he's out having fun but i want him home..now! it is crazy how much he cares for me..at this early point in my life, i couldnt ask for a better boyfriend...

in other news...i finally joined a gym..yet since then have only gone a couple times..it seems i went much more often BEFORE my membership. i went to a yoga class last week which was surprisingly sweat-inducing. and it just rebrought to my attention how unflexible i am. alex had me do the most difficult ab workout in my life..i dont know how to describe it, but i was sore for literally 5 days after. but my ab work is definitely paying off. at six flags the other day, i was reaching into a bag with my arms up and my friend poked my stomach...and her reaction "geezz..your abs are unbelievable."  and better yet, this was unflexed! happy!! to answer emancipate me if anyone else was wondering..i am close to 5'6"

and food is bad. bad bad bad. movies are bad too. at the movies i had a half bag of large popcorn.. no butter though at least... not like that helps the fact that i ate that. only to be followed by a small oreo mcflurry at mcdonalds.  for breakfast i had a half of a pink grapefruit..i dont know how good that is for you...and tonight im having pasta. back to my plan of no eating at school for sure. i cant believe i'm a senior next year. one of the main things i have been waiting for for when i go to college is that i wont have my parents around and i wont have to eat. if i dont keep any food in my dorm...i'll be forced to go out if ever i want something...and i'm way lazy. it'll be such motivation. as long as i can keep myself busy....it'll be great.

this week is FUN! today we have no school [thank you war veterans] tomorrow i have an awards ceremony, nominated for most valuable second soprano, wednesday i have a dinner cruise on the bay with three of my friends, thursday i'm seeing DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL LIVE IN CONCERT...yay for the civic tour..i am so excited...dc is my favorite band..EVER...wow, obsession... and finally ..friday is the last full day of school, what's not to like about that?

i'm currently weighing in at....111...with all that food in me. i'm scared to set goal weights for myself  because i'm scared not to meet them...but i'm scared not to because i dont want to be stuck here on this plateau...

baby i'm back...it's been a long time since i've been on here...i think that 106 must have been some sort of cruel joke my body was playing on me cuz never once since then have i been back at that weight..on the average i'm at a solid 110...not so hot. i'll be updating more often...it used to help me so much. for some reason, i just got caught up in other things and this just kept fading and fading to the back of my head....